Mamavation Monday : 52 Reasons...
Happy Monday, everyone! Yes, that's right. No gloomy Katrina/Katie* here today! I'm actually in fairly good spirits. As always, there will be good days and there will be bad days. Sometimes, there are in between days. How's that for covering all the bases?
In all seriousness, I'm doing ok today. Am I 100%? No, not even close but I'm better. Already today I've been struck with moments of terrible sadness. Eric asked me the simplest question and it threw me. It's ok though. I can take that in, take a deep breath and move on. I'm not paralyzed by the emotion.
For those wondering, I am eating. Last week Tuesday-Sunday, I actually ate 2 meals a day. Granted, sometimes those 2 meals meant 2 bowls of cereal but it's progress and I'm counting it. Today, I'll be in town for a chunk of the day and will be having dinner with the boys. I'm not sure yet what we'll have. It depends on what their dad has on hand.
Sometimes life is about babysteps and that's what's happening with me right now. For perhaps the first time ever, I'm ok with that. I'll get there. Life's been tough and a life like I've had lately would have knocked most people on their ass. It did me. Ok, that's fine. Now, it's time to get back up again and to keep going.
The best part is that I'm not alone in this journey. I have some really great friends. In fact, if any of you remember back when Rob was posting here, I get to spend this coming weekend with him and his beautiful fiancee, Nicole. It's been something like 18 months since I've gotten to see them and I've missed them something awful. It's going to be a long drive but totally and completely worth it. Now, I just have to do laundry! I suppose I ought to drop Rob a note to make sure I don't need to pack anything special.
Once I'm home, it's only a couple more weeks until I'll be in Phoenix. Phoenix..ahh Phoenix..Y'all have no idea how bad I want Phoenix to get here. Justin will be in Phoenix. Eric will be in Phoenix. Other fine people will be in Phoenix. I will be getting massive amounts of love in Phoenix. Phoenix will be the most amazing 4.5 days of the year. I'm also there for the comicon with a press badge, so I expect I'll be bringing home more review work for over at Life With Katie. Yes, Phoenix will be good. Just saying the word Phoenix puts a smile on my face.
So, that's life here..busy preparing for multiple trips, end of the school year wrap up..Speaking of which, how is it possible that my baby is going to 5th grade camp this week? It also reminds me to get his sleeping bag into the washing machine so that it's ready for him. He's going to have a ball but this mama is just a tiny bit sad that her babies aren't even close to being babies anymore. Next year, they'll both be middle schoolers.
Yes, life moves on but now, it's moving on with me as a part of it. I know there will still be bad days. There will. It's ok. I have so much love in my life..I only needed to look around to find it.
*How many of you know me under which name? I'm curious.
** Does this post scream ooh shiney syndrome to you? Note that nowhere else do I ** to even make you look here..lol
*** The title of this post refers to the graphic on the side..a thought that's been in my head as a project that might be worth doing not for someone else, but for myself.
In all seriousness, I'm doing ok today. Am I 100%? No, not even close but I'm better. Already today I've been struck with moments of terrible sadness. Eric asked me the simplest question and it threw me. It's ok though. I can take that in, take a deep breath and move on. I'm not paralyzed by the emotion.
For those wondering, I am eating. Last week Tuesday-Sunday, I actually ate 2 meals a day. Granted, sometimes those 2 meals meant 2 bowls of cereal but it's progress and I'm counting it. Today, I'll be in town for a chunk of the day and will be having dinner with the boys. I'm not sure yet what we'll have. It depends on what their dad has on hand.
Sometimes life is about babysteps and that's what's happening with me right now. For perhaps the first time ever, I'm ok with that. I'll get there. Life's been tough and a life like I've had lately would have knocked most people on their ass. It did me. Ok, that's fine. Now, it's time to get back up again and to keep going.
The best part is that I'm not alone in this journey. I have some really great friends. In fact, if any of you remember back when Rob was posting here, I get to spend this coming weekend with him and his beautiful fiancee, Nicole. It's been something like 18 months since I've gotten to see them and I've missed them something awful. It's going to be a long drive but totally and completely worth it. Now, I just have to do laundry! I suppose I ought to drop Rob a note to make sure I don't need to pack anything special.
Once I'm home, it's only a couple more weeks until I'll be in Phoenix. Phoenix..ahh Phoenix..Y'all have no idea how bad I want Phoenix to get here. Justin will be in Phoenix. Eric will be in Phoenix. Other fine people will be in Phoenix. I will be getting massive amounts of love in Phoenix. Phoenix will be the most amazing 4.5 days of the year. I'm also there for the comicon with a press badge, so I expect I'll be bringing home more review work for over at Life With Katie. Yes, Phoenix will be good. Just saying the word Phoenix puts a smile on my face.
So, that's life here..busy preparing for multiple trips, end of the school year wrap up..Speaking of which, how is it possible that my baby is going to 5th grade camp this week? It also reminds me to get his sleeping bag into the washing machine so that it's ready for him. He's going to have a ball but this mama is just a tiny bit sad that her babies aren't even close to being babies anymore. Next year, they'll both be middle schoolers.
Yes, life moves on but now, it's moving on with me as a part of it. I know there will still be bad days. There will. It's ok. I have so much love in my life..I only needed to look around to find it.
*How many of you know me under which name? I'm curious.
** Does this post scream ooh shiney syndrome to you? Note that nowhere else do I ** to even make you look here..lol
*** The title of this post refers to the graphic on the side..a thought that's been in my head as a project that might be worth doing not for someone else, but for myself.