Monday, January 31, 2011

First Weigh In

I did it. I stripped down to just my socks and underwear this morning and I weighed myself. I promised Justin that no matter what number was on that scale, I wasn't going to freak out. It was just a starting number and that number was going to change. I had hoped that somehow the number hadn't risen from way back in August. I told myself that it probably had. It did. It jumped way back up. Today, I weigh more than I ever have in my entire life and I'll admit it, I'm fighting back the tears. I don't want to believe it. I want to make excuses like the scale was sitting on carpet or it's because I'm on my period. I can't do that though. I need to face reality. I weigh nearly 300 pounds. There, I said it. God, that is such a scary big number. It's hard to even look at it on the screen. I need to make changes. I'm trying to take it slow and babystep at a time, but it's hard. I want the weight gone now. I want to be down into a healthy weight range for my body. I can't even make myself figure out what that number is because I know that will overwhelm me and I'll give up. I have to take this one pound at a time. I have to take this one day at a time. I need to Master one area and then I can move on to the next. If I try to change too much at once, I'm setting myself up to fail. I need to keep working on my water intake. I've been doing really well with getting in those 4 glasses every day. Now, it's time to start working on making it 4.5. That's right, just a half of a glass of water more each day. I can do this. I can get healthy. I. Can. Do. This.



it is a scary number. Please remember that it's about the journey... not the destination. I have to remind myself of that DAILY. Focus on small goals and before you know it, those SMALL changes will add up to BIG changes :)

You can do this! and I'm right here to support you along the way!

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